Suicidalgal2013

I sit in a chair, Day in and out, A repetition of faces, Many moments of doubt I'd like to see, Some new face, But I know, This isn't the place I watch many lives, Wither away like nothing, I feel many emotions, And I don't like touching I lose my grip, Reality bleeding into fiction, Forgetting the difference, Of my affliction My mouth sown shut, My eyes cold, My body aching, I am not yours to mold Hiding my faces, Hiding my words, Learning patience My reflection unrecognized, Tossing and turning, The curtain closing, Looking down at me, I am nothing but simplicity I stand on a line, A line not seen, It means no

She raises a razor to her arm to sought out her doom, A dreadful cry is heard from her room, Her friends rush in and see her standing there, They shake their heads, wondering if she'd dare, One... She said she was done, She cuts a deep slice, Nothing is stopping her from doing it twice, Two... A wonder is coming from who, Deeper the razor goes, It feels like a double dose, Three... He wouldn't even see, Someone stop her, they cry out She was ever starting to doubt, Four... So he called her such a whore, She was framed, She was wrongly blamed, Five... She was tired of being alive, He ripped out her heart, She just wanted

The smell of Autumn leaving, The sweet scent of snow hanging in the air, Christmas is only days away, The green trees are gone, Now stands the barren bark, The soft breeze whipping her hair into her eyes, He held her close, Feeling her shiver against his soft, warm chest, Her slow breathing calmed him, The taster of a crisp snowfall upon their red lips, The sweet song of the birds have suddenly disappeared As the first flake of Snow drifted down, They fell on their knees, Their breathing slowed, The knife went in, The gun went off, Neither one lost, But neither one won, I had to write a long poem telling a story fo

I never thought it would happen, Now, I am oh so sadden, I feel invisible to you, Your too busy with stuff you have to do, I cry dry and wet tears, Too many dark fears, Something tells me you don't want me, Its enough for me to leave such a dull key, Why can't it just be me and your love, I am as white as a glove, I want to tell you everything, But i can't say something, I'm afraid of you leaving, I don't want to be deceiving, I hope everything is going well, We barely talk enough to I actually hear the tiny bell, I have so many scars, But i only have one heart...

It hurts to know that my sister and I, Were brought into the world by an unlovable guy, He is our dad, Or at least we thought until he turned bad, We can't stand the thought of him, Our memories of him are oh so dim, Wondering what he is doing, Nothing is stopping us from booing, What could we have done, That made him be so un-fun, Never saying happy birthday on the right day, Slowly, my sister and I start to say, We hate you daddy, because we are unloved by you, Your always too busy to call or anything with all that you do, Can't you see that you have two little ones, Waiting for you to say from your used-to-be lungs, "I love

I want to say I'm sorry, I really really do, Because we fought over silly things, That didn't matter I want to say I'm sorry, You mean alot to me, I don't want to let you go, We are closer than most things I want to say I'm sorry, For being so stubborn, For getting on your nerves, For all the rug burn I want to say I'm sorry, I really really do, Cause in the end of this mess, I have always loved you